Missing my Monday Afternoon

Today I realized that I miss having my afternoons while I was still pregnant and my toddler would take naps which gave me the chance to enjoy some reading. Well today during nap time, both little ones were out at the same time so I took some time for myself and read a little for myself. Back to my "Motherless Daughters" book. I have been dealing with the sadness of not having anyone to go to for advice about the small things in life like little parenting questions now that my mother is gone. I can't just pick up the phone anymore when I have a question or just need some advice. I swear that sometimes I still have the instinct to just dial her number to hear her voice again but I know she isn't here. This is apparently just one of the stages of grief that I am going through on my mourning journey according to my book. It only gets better with time, but I will never stop wanting to share my everyday moments with her. Every milestone that Aubrey and Lauryn hit will make me remember how proud my mother would have been. I will always miss my mother.