Missing my Monday Afternoon

Today I realized that I miss having my afternoons while I was still pregnant and my toddler would take naps which gave me the chance to enjoy some reading. Well today during nap time, both little ones were out at the same time so I took some time for myself and read a little for myself. Back to my "Motherless Daughters" book. I have been dealing with the sadness of not having anyone to go to for advice about the small things in life like little parenting questions now that my mother is gone. I can't just pick up the phone anymore when I have a question or just need some advice. I swear that sometimes I still have the instinct to just dial her number to hear her voice again but I know she isn't here. This is apparently just one of the stages of grief that I am going through on my mourning journey according to my book. It only gets better with time, but I will never stop wanting to share my everyday moments with her. Every milestone that Aubrey and Lauryn hit will make me remember how proud my mother would have been. I will always miss my mother.

Easy Breezy Thursday Afternoon

So I decided to do some more research in my book "The Womanly Art of Breastfeeding". As a mother I guess that I pretty had the hang of having a newborn, but I was wrong once again. This little one is very different from my first born. She is definitely more demanding of mommy's attention. I learned about a new way of holding a fussy or colicky baby. It was called the colic hold or magic baby hold. Although Aubrey may not have colic thank goodness, she is still is fussy after she eats because I have been having problems with nursing. This hold has been the answer to my prayers and she loves it. It helps her burp as well as spit up if she needs to which makes her tummy feel better. Thank goodness for such good books on babies. I guess that I expected this book to only have information on breastfeeding, but it has so much more.

A Little Light Saturday Reading

Well this week has been really difficult to find anytime for my myself. My newborn has decided to go on a feeding strike and make it really difficult for me to absolutely anything. So I did a little research and took a trip down to the public library. I heard through the grapevine of my friends that the la leche league has a new book out called "Womanly Art of Breastfeeding" with a lot of really good advice when it comes to nursing. I nursed my first daughter without a hitch so I had to blame myself for my newborn not wanting to eat. After a little light reading I found out exactly what was going on. It's not my fault thank goodness. I wasn't doing anything wrong after all. It is so difficult to accept help with something so personal as nursing your baby, but I read a lot of interesting information on my fussy baby and learned what to do. She is doing so much better now and hopefully now I will get some much needed time for myself.

Naptime

Everyone is always telling me that I should nap when little ones are. I try so sometimes, but you're never tired when they are. I put my girls down for a nap this Tuesday afternoon and decided to relax. So instead of getting caught up on the housework like usual I decided to read continue reading my book "Motherless Daughter". Before reading this book I truly felt like I was the only one that could be feeling this way. Since I gave birth to my second little girl without my mother I have been really down. This book has been sharing stories from other girls and women that have lost their. I have begun to realize that no matter how old you are, when you lose your mother it still affects you the same way. There are so many other women out there that have dealt with the same loss as me. I don't feel as though I'm the only one going through this now.

My Sunday Evening

Although I love to read, I really find it hard to find time to read. As a mother it isn't always easy to find time for yourself to do what you want to do. Reading is my passion and it gives me the chance to get away from all the stress in my life. With a newborn that is constantly attached to me, I have been given the chance to sit down and relax more. I can spend time with her in my arms and curl up with a good book. Every night I read the same books to my two year old daughter. I will read "Are You My Mother?" and "One Fish, Two Fish, Red Fish, Blue Fish" by Dr. Seuss. We have read these books so much that she can start telling me the story before I even read the words on the page. You would think that she would get burnt out reading the same books every night, but she loves them. I guess it's just me. By recommendation from a friend, I have begun to read a book called "Motherless Daughters: The Legacy of Loss" by Hope Edelman. After losing my mother to cancer last November I have been having a hard time dealing with my grief. Having a baby without my mother being there really got to me. So this book is supposed to help me feel better. I was told that it will help me realize that I'm not alone. After reading only the first few pages, I was in tears if that tells you anything about what the book entails.